I continue to 'show up'. #thatsurthurty

 

A victimizing Victim. #thatsurthurty

Unfortunately there are people in this world who take their frustrations out on people who aren't the cause of their frustrations or hurt.  I've been one of those people. 

I didn't realize I was doing it until I saw the hurt on the person's face, and that hurt me.  It then caused me to think of all the people who'd hurt or caused me harm, if they were taking frustrations from their hurt of a bad experience out on me.

Yeah, some people are just evil and have no social conscience, then there are others who don't intentionally hurt. They are subconsciously, and sometimes unknowingly hurting others as a defense mechanism in efforts to keep people at 'arms length' in efforts not to be hurt again.  The ole' 'I'll get them before they get me', and most often times that's not the other persons intention.

Look.....we've all experienced some type of hurt, and will experience more hurts.  As we experience them we should learn from them, and part of the learning is not to cause others to feel the way we did when we were hurt.  No, don't let folks run over you; guard your heart, protect yourself......but don't be like the one(s) who hurt you.

I encourage you not to be a victimizing victim......thatsurthurty.

Effects of the Gas Chamber 30+ years later.

 

Take me out the Game Coach! Insomnia.

 

Cleaning is Therapy for me.

 

Today is a Good Day.

 

Quiet Time on Lake Michigan.

 

I can't roll over and die.

 

Night time brings nitemares.

For 9 years I battled with the State of Louisiana (Quachita Parish) to begin Trial for the person accused of murdering my Son. The accused chose trial, yet abated the system for 9 years with all kind of tactics of which the State of Louisiana deemed legal. Yes, there was a flood that slowed things down a bit, and then there was COVID, but that didn't last 9 years. Of course there was more crime during these times causing more back log, but not from cases that were already on the Docket.

Mid 2023, a new Prosecutor came into the district; Mike Fontenot, a 'seasoned' Attorney before becoming a now 'veteran' and soon to be retired Prosecutor. Mr. Fontenot did his due diligence of working on the case, bringing it to Trial Jul. 28th, 2025. A verdict of 'Guilty', Murder 2nd Degree was handed down, July 31, 2025. Sentencing within 90 days. And now the aftermath. I thought I would be relieved, happy, etc., this is not the case. It's going to take more than Therapy to live this 'new normal'. If vlogging doesn't help me through this, I hope it will help someone else.